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It's Fall. [28 Oct 2006|11:39am]

[ mood | calm ]

It is Fall, bordering on the brink of Winter. It's the calm before the start of the most sentimental season, but Autumn has it's own unique characteristics as well.

Now, the leaves change, the weather is unpredictable, and the skies range from stormy greys to elaborate sunsets.

This season's challenge is to write about something or someone you have taken for granted, but have found your love for it/him/her renewed by the everchanging light in our horizon

Here's my contribution: Childhood WillowsCollapse )

Fall is a sentimental season...

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[26 Sep 2005|03:19pm]

while walking home today, i noticed little red and purple leaves (petals?) swirling on the ground.

they be pretty and soothing.

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Bridge to Anywhere Else [30 Jun 2005|07:13pm]

[ mood | Nostagic ]

What an odd feeling, knowing something before some else. Do you divulge it to someone else? or do you let them figure it out on their own.

It's kind of hitting me hard, that writing can't hold every possibility of emotions in it. one of my favorite authors recently decribed that certain joys can't be expressed in blogging, that you had to be there in order to feel the shear JOY in that moment (Joygasm!).

But, I figured that this is what it's for. Sharing. It doesn't have to mean much to another person, but just typing it out makes it so much better, you know?

prelude to the real post

I was surfing pages, as per usual to me just on the internet when I came across a title I haven't read in a Long while, a book that I always thought I'd enjoy to the grave, From the Mixed-Up Files of Mrs. Basil E. Frankweiler. Boy, what a head rush!

Fifth grade, I read that, long enough to seem like centuries ago, and close enough that I remember how I turned to love reading. That year just... Changed what kind of a person I was, from being an incorridgable Closetted person to someone slightly more outgoing.

clicking on it revealed something a bit more different. Yet another book that Amazon decided to try and advertise, the Bridge to Terabithia. The name was so fluffy and GIRLY, yet it lead to me foolishly reading all the way to the end of the book in the middle of class. I burst out in tears in the middle of class, silently digesting the tragic like ending.

It wasn't until I finished it that I realized I was crying and that the class was so much farther behind. What to do?! Therein laid the dilema. I still had my finger where they were, many chapters away from the aggravating ending. I could do nothing to really tell them, how can one emulate the pure saddness from reading it yourself, finding out so painfully?

I wiped away my tears and decided to only tell them, "It has a sad ending."

oh, but before it becomes sad, there's something before it. something that has setimental value. pure and simple like that. Tell the world, tell your best friend, and also the slightly important, to the people that stuble blindly grasping at this community.

Thanks for reading! (oh noes, xpostage!)

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meme, and sleeping well [21 Jun 2005|10:09am]

[ mood | waking up a bit more ]

[ ] I watch too much tv. (only time is when I'm at a friend's house)
[x] I love olives. (yes! I don't see any reason not to...)
[x] I love sleeping. (Depends on my mood, but currently, yesm)
[x] I own lots of books. (personally, no; w/my siblings, yes)
[x] I wear glasses or contact lenses. (I left them at nicolessss)
[x] I love to play video games. (or... most games)

[ ] I've tried marijuana and i hated the effect
[ ] I watch Queer Eye for the Straight Guy.
[ ] I have been in a threesome.
[ ] I hate my ex/s. (dislike? can't stand? its more like disgust.)
[ ] I believe honesty is usually the best policy. (until it blows up in your face)
[x] I curse at times. (...maybe too much when parents are around... I need to tone it down..)
[ ] I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. ( I have noidea.)
[ ] I carry a knife/razor everywhere with me. (I wish! carrying a knife would basically mean I know how to defend myself! that's awesome!)
[ ] I've never broken someone else's bones (......)
[x] I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
[ ] I hate the rain.
[x] I'm paranoid.(some times not though)
[x] I need money right now. (I made plans to watch a movie.)
[x] I talk really, really fast.(xD my sister gets really annoyed sometimes)
[x] I have at least one brother and/or one sister. (oldest sister, oldest brother, older sister)

[ ] I have a twin.
[x] I have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.
[ ] I have mood swings.(moods aswinging? they might if you piss me off)
[ ] I think prostitution should be legalized.
[ ] I think Britney Spears is pretty. (..ew.)
[x] I have good English.(if you're talking GRAMMER-wise, it's too asian to be really good)
[ ] I have a hidden talent. (no, what would I do with it??)
[ ] I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. (not recently)
[ ] I enjoy talking on the phone.(I can't STAND it sometimes.)
[ ] I would rather shop than eat. (the other way around.. unless i need to shop...)
[ ] I would classify myself as ghetto.
[ ] I don't hate anyone.
[ ] I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother. (oooh boy, that falls into the grey area.)
[ ] I have a cell phone.(not since my mom threw it around in a terrible fit of anger)
[ ] I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.('nother ew)
[x] I've rejected someone before. (yeesh)
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. (whoo boy. just being happy's a good way to start, I think)

[ ] I want to have children in the future.
[x] I bite my nails.(only when I break them
[x] I'm not allergic to anything deadly.
[x] I have a lot to learn. (hooray for new knowledge)

[ ] I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger. (if they were younger, I'd be dating a five year old)
[x] I am shy around people of the opposite sex who are really good looking. (I'm just going to check it for the heck of it. I'm sure I am, but there may be contest to this...)
[ ] I have tried alcohol before.
[ ] I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past.
[ ] I enjoy country music.
[ ] I love making new friends. ( concur)
[ ] I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
[ ] I watch soap operas whenever I can. ( I haven't watched one since Days of Our Lives, back when that lady got possessed)
[ ] When I think it matters..I'm obsessive and often a perfectionist.
[ ] I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
[ ] I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it. (no)
[ ] I have dated a close friend's ex.
[x] I'm happy as of this moment. (I'm awake!)
[ ] I have gone scuba diving.
[ ] I've had a crush on somebody I've never met. (I'm not sure how you could do this... oh, no introduction??)
[ ] I kissed someone I knew I shouldn't.
[ ] I strongly dislike math. (I like it. It makes SENSE)
[x] I'm procastinating something right now. (maybe. something small, I'm sure, but it'll be alright)
[ ] I fall in 'lust' more than in 'love.'
[ ] I think Avril Lavigne is the ultimate poser princess.
[ ] I have a pet rat. (i had one named after me)
[x] I've dyed my hair an unnatural color before.(Red! I want to get a bit of blueee)
[x] I'm sleepy right now.(just kinda, I've been staring at the screen for a bit...)

[ ] I hold grudges. (I don't. I tend to forget things. It's usually misconseptions.)
[x] I own a movie or DVD that I have never watched. (when you have bootleg stuff, It's really not that hard)
[ ] I am a runner. (I want to be!)
[ ] My favorite color is red. (depends on what you use it on)
[ ] I have school spirit.(not currently)
[ ] I know all the words to Ice Ice Baby. (NO! they stole the melody from Queen! how dare they!
[x] I want something I can't have. (yeah, a boyfriend. having a mom kinda sucks for that stuff)
[ ] I currently have a crush on someone.
[x] I'm missing somebody right now. (there's not a moment that goes by that I don't remorse the fact I can't spend more time with someone)

Switch of topics!

There's only one way I get to sleep at night, it's when I feel absolutely secure in the world. well, in relation to my blankets, pillows and stuffed animals. If I was warm and comfy, I'm pretty sure I could sleep anywhere.

sleeping habits? hahah! I tend... to shift around if i'm not comfortable. In the process, I tend to.... (this is in the perspective of my siblings, the poor people) punch and bulldoze people. esp if there isn't any room to be comfy.
I get like a cat sometimes though... I adore sleeping/napping where there's a bit of sun to keep me warm. I've never gotten a headache from it being too warm. <3!

what about you? anything particular where you like to sleep? like sleeping under the stars? in a bungalow? do you sleep in a box? pray tell!

Ps: what's you're favorite music to fall asleep to? It's usually stuff on my playlists, like interpol, or some soft j-pop.

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The piano. [25 May 2005|09:08pm]

[ mood | In the mood for FF ]

I'm addicted to it. Its slick keys, its simple opposing colors.
I don't think I can get enough of it.

I haven't touched it before. Not really trying to before, tapping out simple one handed melodies and trinkets of sounds I've memorized and have heard before.

I didn't think it was so difficult, to bring a certain feeling, or mood, or touch to a piece. I'm clumsy, timidly pressing down keys belonging to different people.

They ask me if they should print/copy the music for me so i can take it home. I have a keyboard, but it doesn't compare to an actual one. Synthetic plasics and metals of stereo speakers cannot replicate the satisfaction of the keys responding, vibrating happily under your fingertips, lolling out sound everywhere.

Music is a genre of its own. There is no Power or Survival or I Shall Take It From You To Have My Success.
It's so much more than that. I can't express what it means: to be able to express yourself through this rich deep and impressive instrument, or any instrument.

It took me this long to become so appreciative of things, never understanding that the ease that masters play is only concieved through the long road behind them.

Never Take Anything For Granted

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Walking five not so thousand miles, with friends [14 May 2005|09:10am]

[ mood | Not sore, or anguished. quite pleased ]

I can't understand this "ache" or "soreness" that results from a walk up to Mountain Peak.

A Mountain Peak VoyageCollapse )

I could really care less about the view, the weather that accompanied us, or the feeling of victory at the end of the road. Just being outside, with some of my best friends, going for one of the longest walks nearby was something simple, and gratifying in itself.

There really isn't too many people my age that could really appreciate the trek upward, finding better purchase at home, in video games and computors.

t'is a shame.

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my kind of: [26 Apr 2005|10:30pm]

[ mood | reading. ]

I like being rebelious. It's nothing about being headstrong, or to prove something wrong.
I do it to be slightly more original. well, at least some of the time.

Then there are the times where I do acts of not-really-dangerous-but-still-shouldn't-do-it-for-some-unspeakable-reason.

School's easy to do it in. Teachers are only puzzled, and other students could care less unless they're afraid.

Do you like breaking rules?

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[05 Mar 2005|12:14pm]

-Going outside and noticing that candle lantern I bought years ago is finally going to be used....by birds building a nest in it!

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[05 Mar 2005|09:58am]

I start typing.

Always, when in process of recovering from finishing an intersting book, I'm in a state of. blankness, i'd best call it.

It's from the backlash of finishing something that sucked you in. The Words make you feel.: ____Blank Blank, and suddenly it's done with ye.

Angela's Ashes and 'Tis don't really end. i guess that's how it goes with those kinds of books.

What do you do at the end of a book?

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Just a little freaked out [21 Feb 2005|10:44am]

[ mood | glee! ]

Ever wake up, not being able to feel one of your limbs?

Ever the early risers was I, waking at 6:23, the perfect time for me to realize i was late. I found my right shoulder and arm to be at unpleasing angles compared to my body.
Some of the quirks of restless sleeping and knocking around stuffed animals i suppose.

I found, when trying to move my arm so my torso was in a better position, that i couldn't move it. I had to do a princess bride move.

Remember the part where westley could barely move and fezzik was really bubbly about how he twitched some part of his body?
Fezzik: "You just shook your head -- that doesn't make you happy?"
Westley: "My brains, his steel, and your strength against sixty men, and you think a little head jiggle is supposed to make me happy?"

Well, after that, they have one of those all-for-one-and-one-for-all kind of put-hand-together-scene. Westley doesn't have control of his arms yet, just his torso, so he swivels his arms a couple of time so that he can swing his arm/hand into the circle.

Same kinda thing.

T_T you have no idea how weird it is when you can only feel your right hand when your left hand touches it. the roughness and contours of your hand feels utterly different from your other side's persepective.

Waking up 2 hours later, i have full use of my hands and arms, and I'm utterly happy.

It's sunny, windy, and the tree outside is blossoming, abeit without leaves.

xposted on a whim!

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I love to walk in the rain. [19 Feb 2005|01:51pm]

[ mood | relaxed ]

Earlier this week, Souri and I decided to take a walk in the rain. I used this as a nice opportunity take pictures of my area. It was guarenteed that I'd be able to see things differently than I usually would.

The following two pictures are my favorites, granted that it took some fiddling on the computer to achieve these results.

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Night x Rain [17 Feb 2005|06:33am]

[ mood | relaxed ]

Sitting in the night, typing something NOT school related as usual.

Then it rained.

Somehow I felt relaxed as I hear the rain pound the darkened streets outside, not unlike a lullaby. Guess I'll sleep well tonight.

...so what do you feel about rain? =]

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[02 Dec 2004|01:40am]

[ mood | tired ]

In california, we've been having very sunny days, but with heavy clouds in every which way.

I find it.. so odd that winter's so... breathtaking. During this season, the sky is amazingly clear. You'd think that summer has unrivaled bright sunny days, but winter has the clearest.

Summer has a murky, sort of scummy type of sun, the kind you never really want to be awake in.

Winter has this... unadultered feel, white, pure and warm to be under.

so! in a comparison between summer and winter, i find winter to be victorious!

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'Tis the season to be jolly... [25 Dec 2004|07:06am]

[ mood | staring into the snowless nite ]

Since i've yet to contribute something joyful to this community, thought i'd share how my x'mas was spent.

well... i woke up really late cos my bed's just waaaaaaaaay too comfy, then got up, went out for lunch ((hmm... best not think about it)), came back home and just wandered around. played some video games (major awesomeness), and listened to some christmas-y music. yup. relaxing and boring at the same time.

oooh! and i bought a new CD, too!! Onitsuka Chihiro's "CHIHIRO ONITSUKA ~the ultimate collection~"

Yup. so how was everyone else's Christmas? =]?

edit just realized how awkward this entry is considering that Christmas has just started in CA but is ending for me ^^lll

Merry x'mas~!

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Fact 1.1 [08 Nov 2004|07:57pm]

[ mood | tranquil ]

fact 1

Ever wonder why the sky was blue?

The light we get from the sun is (one) diffused everywhere, so what able to strain through the atmosphere and hit our eyes is blue. and since our planet's spherical, sunlight is distributied differently, so in other parts of the world see red.

What's diffusion caused by? the oxygen and nitrogen in the air. if it was water, it would be hazy and weird everywhere... i wonder what clouds would be like...?

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